Curse or Not?

My husband and I are fond of helping other people like sending them to college. It's just that we want these people to have a better future. But in so doing, still there are other people who are envious of what we're doing. Like, they would rather prefer that they're the ones who would be helped out. But in fairness, why should we help others who are already married and have their own family? We are only after these young people who are poor but deserving to make them realize their dreams.

But lately, we have been tested, again. This is the second time that when our student is about to enter their 4^th year in college, things turned up the wrong way. Of late, my niece suffered depression and anxiety disorder. We could hardly talk to her. We have exhausted all means to dig into what's bothering her but all our efforts were futile. After almost a month of battling with her disorder, I finally gave up on her, accepted the fact that she's dropping from her classes this first semester and that she's gonna be delayed in her course, if she will still continue it next semester.

We were all so hopeful, believing that come March 2010, we will already have our first college graduate. But then, our faith has been tested, our patience waned. We got tired of prodding her to go to school. I spent sleepless nights attending to her. I can't believe it myself that she, being an intelligent girl, would succumb to depression. I have fairly treated all of them, and equally with my own kids. But why on earth did she suffer such disorder? She told me once it was about her family, then after learning that, I tried to comfort her and told her that everything will be fine anyway I am always with her and we love her. But those endearing words never worked on her anymore. The degree of her disorder might be such that she needs a psychiatrist.

That's why this morning, while we were having breakfast with my other college scholar, now in 3rd year college, I told her to please break the curse, if it is a curse for me and my husband. I was relieved when she promised me that such curse, if it is so, will never happen again because she's really dedicated and would do all means to finish her course. I was so happy to hear her say that.

If this is a curse for our family or not, then let it be broken.

Losing Precious Gadgets

Losing precious gadgets does not only mean dropping them or leaving them in places and realizing thereafter that you can’t retrieve it anymore as some other souls coveted owning it and hiding it from the real owner. It could also mean being destroyed unintentionally.

My daughter lost a high end cellphone and an Olympus Digicam to snatchers one after the other last year. The same is through with my youngest kid. He left his cellphone inside a tricycle while taking a ride back home which we were not able to retrieve anymore. Aside from that, my daughter, again, dropped his newly bought cp inside our toilet bowl. Naturally, it was destroyed. We tried to request for a replacement as it was just newly purchased and covered with a year’s warranty, but the dealer found out that the reason of its destruction was due to mishandling. Thus, they did not replace it. I said to my daughter, “have that cp wood-laminated to serve as a special memento of carelessness”. She just shrugged off her shoulders.

Because she would lose one gadget after the other, she resigned herself to using just the ordinary cp which snatchers wouldn’t care to take a look at or will never try to snatch it. She learned a lesson which reduced her to prefer the cheap and low end celphone like the one she’s using now.

But the most hurting way to lose a precious gadget is to destroy it unintentionally. That’s the case for my Sony Vaio laptop. What’s worse is that when we requested the services of a Sony Service Center in Baguio City, we were disappointed to learn that they are not allowed to touch, repair or open laptops bought abroad as is the case of my own. Believing that these service centers cater to the needs of their clients/customers, it was never their case.

We left the service center too disappointed. I wanted to cry. But then, we tried another service center that was willing to find out the cause of why my precious gadget does not boot and we were led to an hp service center. They examined it and found out that the motherboard was destroyed. That’s a first opinion and as of now I am not yet resigned to accepting the fate of my precious friend. But in those moments after learning that it’s already beyond repair, as alleged, I wanted to cry.

Just the other day, I contacted a friend whom I believe can have a second-best opinion on the case of my gadget. I am crossing my fingers now and hope that they can still repair it. Although my hubby bought me a new one, dispensing my first really breaks my heart. I want it to be working again.

It is so precious to me. Since the time I can no longer use it, I stopped writing blogs. I felt I am a lesser person without it. Though my new one arrived three weeks ago, I had this fear that I might destroy it again. But this afternoon, I realized that it’s useless to continue brooding on a hopeless case? So after arriving home from office, I immediately went to my bedroom, brought the laptop out from where it was hidden since it arrived and here I am writing my second blog today. This time, I’d be more careful in using it. This time, I should not let anyone use it. This time, to hell with those internet prompts for updates that continuously pops up on the screen every time I am connected to the net. Basically, they are the greatest culprits which you can never fight back or get even at. You’re always at the losing end.

What's Wrong With You Kakai?

First, you left your first phone inside a tricycle. We tried to look for the driver and it took us hours before we were able to see him, but strongly denied that your cp was left inside his tricy and even pretended to be looking inside it. A couple of weeks passed, a relative saw your cp being used by the tricy driver's son. We can't force them to surrender it anyway. God bless their poor soul.

When your dad arrived from work, we bought you a brand new cp. After two months, your cp was destroyed because of mishandling. It fell inside the toilet bowl and there's no way that it could be repaired.

Just last semester, you again had a new phone bought by your father abroad, and what happened? While on your way to school, somebody snatched it from the pocket of your bag including your school ID which you only realized when you were about to enter your school presmises. You were grounded, of course. No phone for several months and you were forced to save from your allowance, if only to be able to buy a new one. But not really a new one, instead you opted for a slightly used one for fear that it might be snatched again.

And just last week, while you and your kid bother were at the black market to encash dollars into peso, our precious digicam was snatched again from you. Don't you know how much that digicam cost your dad.

Why Kakai? What's wrong with you? I don't know how i will feel for you now. How could I get mad at you? How could I tell you that I am so mad at you? How irresponsible you are? How careless you are? Will you care to be responsible? Please grow, please care for the things that are materially precious to us.>